Thursday, December 25, 2008

~X'Mas~

今年的圣诞节一点圣诞的气氛都没有…唯一可以看到的就是mall里面有些decoration罢了…有够闷…Eve那天知道Boon Han的教堂有庆典…十一里的教堂也有…但是今年真的没有那种心情去…所以选择了哪里都不去…由于今晚BBQ要有圣诞节的气氛,我们决定要穿红色衣和戴圣诞帽…但是我们都没有…所以昨晚就跟优优,差差,和理理去Jusco买…但是Jusco竟然没有卖!但是我们当然没那么容易就放弃…天生聪明的我就提议去pasar malam买…CP的夜市已经差不多要关完了…结果就坐理理车去到康乐夜市…到了那边看到的就只有CNY的装饰品…明天明明就是圣诞节…为什么一点X'Mas Eve的feel都没有的…但是…就因为我的一句,“我们要坚持到底!”,我们就从街头走,走,走~到街尾…最后真的被我们找到了!就在一个平平凡凡街尾的小档子里… =.= 然后我们一人买一个就回家了…但是差差不懂吃错什么药在车里竟然high了起来…开着窗口对着外面的人喊“Merry X'Mas!!”…有够=.=…但是看到他那么high,我也许也应该配合一下…所以我还是喊了一两句… =.=" 回到家在MSN聊一两句就睡了…累… Merry……X'Mas……

Monday, December 22, 2008

~22.12.08~

Sunway Lagoon!! 哈哈…第一次去Sunway Lagoon的感觉还不错…虽然用了不少钱,但是开心就好…照片懒惰放上来…你们应该都有了…所以…不用了吧…糟糕…好像太久没blog了…现在连自己都不懂自己在写些什么了…半桶水的华语…烂…算了…反正自己明白就好… =.=

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

~朋友~

朋友是很难得的…但是朋友绝对不是随口说说就算…有些人根本不把朋友当作一回事…有些呢就是选择性的挑选他的朋友…也有人说朋友是要来出卖的…但是无论那些人是怎样想,我只是想说现在的我很开心可以认识到你们(七大不)…不管未来会发生些什么事,我只需要这段回忆就够了…谢谢你们让我可以保留着这段开心的回忆…

~乐观和悲观~

每天都会听到别人在说,“做人要乐观点。酱子我们才会更快乐。”但是我一点都不认同这样的说法…第一也许因为我本身就是个悲观的人…第二,悲观有什么不好呢?只要不过分悲观绝对是好的…一个悲观的人常常都会先做最坏的打算以迎接意外的来临…不好吗?至少当受到挫折的时候可以把伤害减到最低…不像那些乐观的人,遇到小小的挫折就要生要死的…烦不烦啊…但是还是那句…别人爱怎样是别人的事…我没权利干涉也不想去干涉…但是也别来到我面前想要我改变…抱歉,我办不到…我就是我…接受吧…要不然就滚…

~Blank~

Lately always post in chinese.. Its becuz.. I oso duno y.. Juz feel like hard to say things in eng.. Somemore lazy to think wat eng word dat i should use.. Sometimes compose til half way den blank d.. =.=" So mostly wrote in chinese.. Sorry for de inconvenience.. ><

~世界的一部分~

有很多人常常会说…“我没有任何生存的价值…”但是事情不是这样的…我们每一个都是世界的一部分…就算是一个再小不过的小小点,也是不可缺少的…就算我们消失了,在世界的某个角落依然会有我们的痕迹的…决定不可以否定自己的存在…相反的,我们应该多加努力好让更多人知道我们的存在…

Friday, November 21, 2008

~无题~

最近都很累…一大堆功课要做…不过还好…懒惰还是战胜了…终是留到最后一小时才会想去做…所以每次都要赶…但是已经习惯了…

安静的感觉很舒服…无意中爱上这种感觉了…但是安静的同时也会有寂寞的感觉…是难免的吧…随便吧…习惯就好…

刚才妈妈对我说了一些我懂但已经被遗忘的东西…但是不知道为什么我一句话也没回她…心里是有在想东西的…但是还是选择了保持沉默…对不起…我不是有意不说话的…只是已经不懂该说什么也不想说些会让彼此不开心的话…所以我选择了保持沉默…

我要改变…但我会改变吗?我不知道…我是个100%三分钟热度的人…不会有人会看好我吧…包括我自己…无所谓了…反正我还是我…会有谁去理会这些事…随便吧…

Saturday, November 8, 2008

~无题~

才刚满18岁不久就把人生给看透了…感觉有点恐怖…原来,可以什么都不想的做人是多么的幸福…但那不是我…我就是一个就算尽量不去想也还是会乱想的人…是好是坏也无所谓了…反正是个无法改变的事实…唯有学习接受…
(当我在写这篇文的时候有一只小虫飞到银幕上…心里在想,只要我抓住它然后轻轻一按…它的生命就这样结束了…那么…我的生命会是如何结束的呢?)

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

~毕生难忘的感觉~

我想每个人都会有一件事永远都无法忘记的…有些是快乐的事,有些是悲伤的事…而我呢…刚才妈妈在电脑看“与敌同行”…我也一起看…看完了本来打算要睡了…可是突然间想起那件事…那种心痛的感觉又回来了…被你信任的人骗和出卖的感觉很可怕…当时的画面和那种痛是我永远都不会忘记的…是他教会我别太信任一个人…是他让我看清楚人类丑陋的一面…那件事永远都会残留在我脑海里…时时刻刻提醒自己别再让自己受伤害了…我痛恨他,但也要谢他…应为要不是他教会我这堂课,我依然是无知天真的我…现在的我,就算不会是一个快乐的人,但不会再有东西可以伤害到我了…因为,我已经放弃了…没什么值不值得可言…反正这只是人生…有什么了不起…到终点了,很自然的就会结束了…

Sunday, November 2, 2008

~无题~

今天在家里很无聊…不知道自己想做什么…整身肌肉都酸痛…想到很多功课和assignment还没做,但是很懒惰去动…结果又给了自己乱想的机会…又想了很多…我,他,她,和他们的事…有的没的都拿出来想…想到头爆就没想了…本来就不太好的心情就变得更差…超无聊的一天就这样过了…明天又要回到学院上课了…更无聊… ==''

~Banquet~

Yesterday went to Hotel Nikko to work as part time waiter at their wedding banquet.. At first thought its fun n can go n get some experience.. De 1st exp i get is... Waiter at banquet is a very tiring work~!! Omg.. Now whole body oso pain.. Even typing hurts.. Juz now 2 pm only wake up.. >< Chee Wei swear dat he wont go back thr as waiter again... Being served in a wedding dinner i think every1 has tried be4.. But dis is de 1st time i serve ppl in a wedding dinner.. Nervous, excited n tired.... Lucky de table dat i served is somehow considered nice n save me a lot of work.. De dinner is so elegance.. De bride n groom is pretty n handsome, thr's around 50+ tables, n they even dance on de stage after de dinner.. Wat a wonderful dinner.. De guests consist of higher lvl ppl in society.. So many leng lui.. Haha.. But too busy oso no time to look at them clearly.. Haiz.. Tired... 

Sunday, October 26, 2008

~无题~

前几天Mimi在MSN找我…然后就跟她聊了一下…她想找我去“风缘”(忘记哪一个“yuan”)…我就说可能去不到…她还是一直劝我去…然后聊聊下她就问起我现在的生活如何…开心吗…我就说还好…但是她就是一直说她知道到我的生活很不开心很无奈之类的东西…就劝我祷告…我就说“ok”…然后她就说她曾经经历过很多…然后她问到我的看法…结果我就跟她讨论了关于我对“信仰”的看法…最后她还是没办法说赢我但她就为我祷告了…说真的,我觉得传教的人很可怕…因为他们的想法就是他们让世人认识到主耶稣,帮助他们洗清罪业,好让死后可以上天堂…他们觉得他们是在做一件再好不过的东西…这种想法让他们变得更恐怖…因为你永远无法否定他的说的话…而且他也不会接受你说的话…反而会想改变你的想法…就好像在帮你洗脑…老实说我是把信仰当作是我们心理上的支柱…如果你说你是要帮助我上天堂的话就不必了…如果说我不相信就足够让我下地狱的话,那就让我去吧…如果这还是我的人生的话就让我还留着些权利去做些决定吧…别连那么一点点的决定权都不给我…

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

~开心的资格~

想要开心不顾一切的生活可以吗?不可以…我是一个没有资格开心的人…我不可以容许自己不顾一切…就是不可以…但是这次就让我任性一点吧…我自认从小也没怎样要求过什么…就让我错这一次吧…一个100分的儿子…我已经做不到了…这学期我真的不想做工…只好尽量把书给读好…你并没有刻意的给压力我…可是这样我就没压力?压力会让人成长…但是我的压力就快把我给逼疯了…算了…讲多也没用…我没得选…选择权根本不在我手上…就算是最基本的开心我也不见得可以看到…很累…不想再想了…

Saturday, October 11, 2008

~陌生~

喝茶时坐在正对面桌子的人感觉很陌生…曾经让我掉过眼泪的人,曾经伤害过我很深的人,曾经让我觉得当他朋友是很好不过的人,曾经让我看清楚人最丑陋的一面的人,现在只剩一种感觉…就是陌生…恭喜我吧…我终于可以把他们的名字从我“朋友”名单删除掉了…可喜可贺…我永远都不会再希望这些人在我生命中扮演任何角色了…刚才LBH来到我家拿cheque的时候,一下车就一直跟我讲话,问我些问题…而我,就很敷衍的答了他几句…很LC,很串,很不值一提的人吧?那就永远都别提到我了…希望我们的世界不会再有交叉点了…

Friday, October 10, 2008

~超无聊~

今天过得真无聊…6个小时的休息时间…开始去吃,吃饱了就去拿薪水,然后就到Pavillion走,走到累了就坐下聊天…还聊了蛮多的…不懂为什么总是觉得跟她蛮聊得来的…看到这里就别乱想了…人家已经有男朋友了…她不会是DanDan…聊完了就回到学院上课…超无聊的课…差一点就睡着了…那个lecturer讲我们之间有50%的人已经failed了Introduction to HospitalityIndustry…好担心自己会是其中一个…但是现在想也没用…但是就是担心…

Sunday, October 5, 2008

~无题~

刚喝完姑姑的喜酒回来…新郎新娘可真是郎才女貌…祝新郎新娘白头到老…那里的食物还ok啦…不算好吃…吃饱就是了…突然想到一个问题…我的喜酒会是如何的呢?太遥远了…没办法想象…弃权…

我拥有和别人不一样的价值观…最近把钱看得更重了…是太理智了吗?我也不清楚…不管了…开心就好…不开心也罢…

最近变得越来越矛盾…做工那时候无聊会找LBH聊聊…但是聊了一下忽然想起“那件事”…心情就被搞得乱七八糟的…就会想自己是否忘了自己说过的话…忘记了那种痛吗?我永远永远都忘记不了…也许是不想放下吧…如果这是个遗憾的话,就让我把它一起带着走吧…

Thursday, October 2, 2008

~Yew Yew's Burfday!!~

Hapi burfday!

Hapi burfday!!

Hapi burfday!!!

Hapi burfday!!!!

Enough le gua... 4 times d.. But.. I noe u r greedy.. K la.. Happy birthday to Mr. Gee!! 18 years old liao lo... Dun always make urself til so cham la.. Many ppl is worse than u.. Wan wait die oso must enjoy de process of waiting.. ^^ De present leh.. Although very cheap, but reli got heart de.. De paper bag is hand made (my mom) de a.. Not cheap de a.. Haha.. Very sorry failed to prepare a cake for u.. Reli too late n shops all closed d.. Sry sry sry.. >< Here are 3 wishes for u~~ Let me think think ar.. Hmm.. Hmm... HMM... HMMMM....

1st wish.. Healthy..

2nd wish.. Happy..

3rd wish/last wish/most important wish.. Hope our friendship last forever.. 

P/S :Final 2 words.. Happy Birthday~~ ^^

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

~家~

一个完美的家应该是怎样的?人没有完美的,家也许也是一样…有些人把家当作饭店,只是个吃喝睡的地方…有些人很重视家庭…不知道为什么,家的感觉慢慢地消失了…爸爸妈妈每天很努力的赚钱是为了这个家…有谁会去想他们在想什么?吃饱了吗?累吗?值得吗?爸爸最近认识了另一个老板…听说那个老板已经离婚了…所以爸爸经常都是会陪着他…前几天爸爸问我们这几天有空吗,他老板约我们上云顶…妈妈说她要做头发…刚才回到家妈妈告诉我他上了云顶…我感觉到妈妈很不开心…之前已经试过好几次跟他老板在外面吃忘记告诉我们…我们就在家等他回来一起吃饭…在他还没认识这个老板之前他很注重一家人一起吃饭的…每次都要等到每个人到齐了才开动…现在怎么了?妈妈说他要去陪老板吃饭讨好老板,跟老板建立好关系…好让以后会比较快出到工钱…不明白…我真的不明白…是我们先冷落他的吗?回想起来他每天就只有在吃饭的时候跟我们讲得到话…是因为他觉得他留在家也没意义才会常跟他老板一起吗?不知道…也许是吧…那么妈妈呢?一大早起身运动,然后做头发,放工就煮菜,做家务,冲凉,睡觉…差不多每天都是酱…为了什么?就是为了家…她得到什么?再怎么想也想不到…我可以做什么?我唯一可以做的就是做她的乖孩子…除此以外还有什么?想不到了…为什么有些人什么都要想?让一大堆问题逼死自己…有些人就可以什么都不想…不为什么…这世界本来就是不公平的…算了…随便吧…死了就没什么好想了…就等死吧…

Sunday, September 28, 2008

~Momo burfday (27/9)~

Normally during every1's burfday oso will hv 1 post here.. So dis is 1 for Momo~ 

Hapi burfday~ Hope u enjoyed ur day~ Hope u hv a better day next year~ Tell u de truth la.. U r pretty la.. Well.. At least not bad.. ^^ De present hor... Almost forgot tell u.. Got 3 ppl share.. Sry for forgeting dat... ><

Monday, September 8, 2008

~101~

哈哈…这篇是第101篇文了…虽然没什么历史价值,但是总该写些什么…不经不觉竟然写了100篇文…开心的,不开心的,流泪的,无聊的,噼里啪啦写了一堆…不为什么…只是有些话讲不出口就写下来吧…有些话不该讲的就留在内心间里吧…眼睛蒙蒙的不知道要打什么了…算了…就到这里了… ^^

~矛盾~

真的不懂该怎样…电脑坏了,要用到钱…车子要供,又是钱…考完试后想去云顶玩一两天,也需要钱…钱,钱,钱…我该去哪里找钱?没钱真的很无奈…就连那几十块钱也不舍得去花…因为我知道钱不好赚…我从小就知道了…我是知道的…但是为什么…为什么我不可以狠心点?去玩就去玩嘛…顾虑那么多做什么?救命啊…为什么双子座的人永远都要活在理性与感性之间…真的是天大的折磨…烦啊……

Friday, September 5, 2008

~无题~

哇靠~很久没上来了…内心间好像被荒废了…有好几次想要上来的…可是懒得login就算了…

明天就开始考试了…还没开始读书…妈妈不知道为什么明明知道我就快考试了还在打机也没骂我…是因为信任我吗?也许是吧…

就快要拿到车了…有了它就不用酱麻烦了…可是就要用钱来买时间…值得吗?

天生我材必有用…我有什么用?想不到也不想去想…开心就好啦…无所谓啦…

Thursday, August 14, 2008

~Destiny~

What is destiny? Fate of someone's life? Destiny controls how we act in our life? I dun think so.. Juz like a monopoly game.. De dice will appear in random but it is up to us to decide which way we'll be going and how many dice to use.. We cant control everything dat's right but we dun nid to.. Juz choose de right way to go and nevermind de result.. To me it's juz a life.. I did my best I will never regret.. Til de end den it's end of life.. Ntg more or less.. Y must we be so insist and persist on so many things.. What do we get in return? I cant reli see any benefit.. We are not controlling our destiny but we constribute to our destiny.. So let's enjoy our life n hv a happy life~~ ^^

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

~无聊~

最近越来越少blog了…很懒惰上来…没什么特别事情发生…生活如常的无聊…每天只顾着吃喝玩乐…就来final了…还没开始读书…是时候收拾心情专心开始温习了…

电脑monitor突然间变成黄光了…应该是“够钟”了吧…它也跟了我几年了…从旧屋子到现在…是时候换了…但是最经用了很多很多钱…真的很矛盾到底该不该换…唉…

日子一天一天的过…就这样就来读完一个学期了…现在开始读书的话也许成绩还过得了关…毕竟我不是读不到书的人…加油吧…希望明天不会忘记我今天所打的字…

Friday, July 25, 2008

~自私是人的本性~

也许有句话是对的…人不为己天诛地灭…之前提过说我参加了羽球比赛…原来我的拍档以前是雪兰莪选手…称他为GM…而志伟的拍档就是从别的课程的…由于这次比初赛只可以和同样课程的人拍档才可以,所以他们被逼要退出…后来他问了我个问题…“ 如果和你换拍档你OK吗?我会帮你找另外一个人和你拍档…” 说真的,输赢真的那么重要吗?我承认我不是很会打球…也许让他和GM一起还有可能拿冠军…但是真的有必要这样吗?我不是很介意换拍档这回事但是为了要赢比赛一旦我说“ OK啦 ”就立刻找GM聊这件事还立刻告诉负责这次运动的人,把他朋友的名字交上去和我拍档…效率也太快了吧…本来是想参加来玩玩的…现在看来还是算了吧…不想玩了…已经没意思了…也太现实了吧…为了这件事相信我们各自心里都会留下一根刺…为了避免无谓的沉默,现在也很少会谈到羽球了…连话也少说了…算了…不是我的错…我不会觉得可惜…只是觉得有点可悲…

Thursday, July 17, 2008

~Loan~

^^ Application for loan is accepted d.. Hope no prob.. Reli nid dis amount of money.. Previously i even dream dat dis loan is accepted.. Haha.. Must study harder d.. Cant let anyone down anymore.. I must success!!

~Rush..rush..rush...~

3 assignment at 1 time.. So rush.. All because of lazy.. Got time no do.. Now wan reach due date liao only wan rush.. Useless.. Must change.. Cannot keep on like dis.. Haiz.. But so easy meh.. Exam oso duno wan study wat.. Lucky not so hard.. But i dun wan pass.. I wan B above.. Haiz.....

~天生我材必有用~

发现原来班上很多人都是很厉害的…越来越觉得自己一无是处了…不可以…我并不平凡…我可以的…是时候该自我正值了…我不可以变成一个废材…我并不是废材…加油加油!

Friday, July 4, 2008

~是值得的~

今天的课取消了…本来应该是个很开心的一日假期的…同班同学约我去唱K…但是我推了…今天去了IDC做工…九点早上到九点晚上…12个钟头…回到家我已经累到半死了…但是算了吧…是我自己选择去做工的…今天工钱还OK的…RM135…累归累,想到一点累就有RM135就还好啦…顶不顺了…睡了…

Thursday, June 26, 2008

~Sorry~

Today back home very tired.. Didnt help do any house work.. After dinner str8 into de room n rush Hubungan Etnik assignment.. Mom came in.. Ask me whether can fetch her go aunt house ma.. My reply is I feel like wanna slp o.. Den she say nvm n went out.. Later on finished my assignment thing Tae called n say Myee call out yum cha.. I say ok.. Den go ask mom.. Whether can go out or not.. How idiot I am... She felt so hurt.. I cant even bring her to aunt house to take her business card but I can go out yum cha.. She did so much juz for me and I cant even fetch her to aunt house.. If she noe how to drive she dont hv to ask me.. I nvr feel so idiot be4.. Sorry.. I reli didnt mean to hurt u.. Reli sorry.. I dont even noe how to make her feel better.. Useless son...

Thursday, June 19, 2008

~无题~

世界上果然怎样的人都有…每天搭巴士上学遇到了不少…可说是大开眼界了…搭巴士还不算是很惨…哈哈…上个礼拜还在巴士上遇到Boon Han…跟他聊到最近生活状况才知道原来他在教钢琴…Zi Hui也是他的学生…想想下毕业后也没见过她了…希望她依然是好好的生活… ^^

虽然每个礼拜都会跟你们聚聚,但是这5天好像很久哦…好像很久没见你们了…也好像有点习惯了每天跟你们喝茶聊天了…现在每个人都很忙,要聚也只好等星期六了…虽然每天都跟志伟聊天,但是总觉得有些事情不太适合跟他讲…所以还是选择不讲…

最近跟同班同学比较熟了…男女都有讲有笑…前几天才跟他们去唱K了…有几个女的声音还不错的叻…她们应该是觉得我唱歌也不错,所以约我下个月再去唱… =P

学校课外活动一定要参加…由于羽球跟gym已经满了,我被逼要选其它的运动…所以我选择了squash…根本不懂是怎样玩的…但是没办法了…迟点再学吧… =.=

最近都没抽到时间上来blog了…也许等有空再多点上来吧…

Sunday, June 8, 2008

~Early birthday~

A different celebration for my own bd.. As i wished.. At Bistro.. Some ppl didnt turned up.. Went cc as i heard.. But its ok.. I dun reli mind.. Thx for whoever came.. Thx Chee Wei for paying for de Tomyam Bihun.. Thx for de condom doll.. ITS RELI CUTE!! Love it.. Haha.. Thx.. Dats it.. Tired.. Nitez..

Saturday, June 7, 2008

~无题~

07-06-2008 12.03 伟权发了个祝福短讯给我…是祝我生日快乐的…还加了很多祝语在里面…他以为我是在今天生日的…然后告诉他我是在09-06生日的…他说记错朋友的生日觉得惭愧…其实也没什么啦…不就是生日罢了…换作以前的我收到他的祝福短讯应该会很开心…现在反而好像有点怪怪的感觉…哈哈…也不用说为什么…就酱…晚安…

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

~谢谢~

今天放学回到家的时候,放好东西就去吃饭…当我正想要开动的时候妈妈走了过来…摸摸我的头问我,“今天读书会累吗?”当然我的答案是不累…其实,我再累也比不上爸妈做工赚钱养我共我读书来的累…想起来真的有点惭愧…我自问没问过爸爸妈妈做工会累吗…但我是知道的…你们的恩情是我这辈子都无法还清的…我唯一可以做得就是努力读好书,考好成绩,出来做工再好好地回报你们…最近用了很多很多钱…课本,制服,还有其它东西都用到钱…迟点又要生日了…不知道该怎样好…好烦啊…唉…再看看怎样办吧…现在的我能做些什么?

~College life~

Coll life dun seems to be as fun as it is.. 4 hours break is very annoying... Walk walk sit sit duno do wat.. Cant c any leng lui oso.. Sien.. De word 'walk' sounds very scary to me now.. Everyday walk at coll til sweating.. My sweat gland is so active everyday.. Zz.. It is so sweating at coll.. De only thing i found interesting in coll is Japanese.. Haha.. I seems to be in love wif Japanese.. Duno y i'm so attracted in it.. ^^ Up til now overall stil ok la.. But started to get busy.. Even dis blog oso long time no visit liao.. Haiz.. Try to find time to get on here n clean de dust ba.. =.=

~Car fuel increases..~

Haiz.. Once again de fuel price increases make me cant drive Unser to coll d.. Back to LRT life... Zz... But no choice la.. Now mayb will buy a Kancil or Kenari.. Cincai la.. Life is always so troublesome.. Sien......

Saturday, May 31, 2008

~无题~

前几天跟志伟聊天聊到关于车的问题…我听到他说的一段话后呆了一下…他说,人比人,比死人…我们不需要把自己跟别人比…别人有什么是别人的事,自己不需要自卑或怎样…听完了我真的呆了几秒钟…虽然这些我都懂,但是好像差点被遗忘了…他讲了这段话让我想到很多东西…最近跟他越来越聊得来了…没特别原因…反正他也不难相处…聊得来就聊吧…到没话聊的时候就算了…

现在坐巴士和LRT去学院要大约两个小时…回也一样…真的觉得很浪费时间…这件事妈妈也知道…她的建议就是让我驾车去学院…但是我真的不想驾车去…想不到任何有力的接口但就是不想驾车去…Parking少,怕车的安全,塞车,车油贵…但如果不要驾车去就只有浪费两个小时搭车…要不然就搬过去那边住…妈妈很舍不得我,我是知道的…真的好烦…目前酱来回还不是很大问题…迟点学院开始有一大堆活动或考试的时候就一定很麻烦…很烦啊…根本想不到任何好的解决方法…我不想再想但不得不想…因为我不想的话谁帮我想…救命…

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

~26th May~

Today Hotel Management duno cuz of wat no class.. But went to coll after all.. Since got car sit n wan make student id card.. I got my id card liao lo... Haha.. ^^ Me n Chee Wei went to coll by a girl's car.. She is Cheryl.. A fren of Ming Hui.. Dat girl quite ok.. Haha.. Dun think so much a.. Especially Koh.. Hehe.. She oso wont be dan dan.. At coll make id card.. Got a car sticker form.. Copy timetable.. It's terrible.. Haiz.. Sent de declaration form.. Knew a new fren.. Eric, oso from Hotel Management de.. Different group.. Good thing cuz he is quite fan.. Gege.. Meet another fren, Yue Min, last time noe him at Vincci de.. He asked me whether i'm on diet.. Haha.. Finally got ppl ask me dat.. So hapi.. =P Chit chat a while.. Got to noe he is stil finding room mate.. Haiz.. He asked me too.. But i knew i wont stay outside.. Due to some reasons.. After dat sat at canteen wif Chee Wei waiting for de girl finish class.. LBH at thr too.. They 4 ppl rent 1 master bedroom for RM 500+.. Duno y they'll choose to share 1 room.. Mayb they wan to make sure warm enuf.. Zz.. Suan la.. None of my business.. 3 p.m de girl finish class den start journey back.. But didnt str8 away back.. Suddenly came up wif idea to go for tea.. So stopped at Steven's Corner to drink tea n chit chat.. Dat place is not bad leh.. After dat only go home.. My car park at Chee Wei's hse thr.. When reached his hse dat time it was raining cat n dog... Long time no c such a heavy rain liao.. -.- Get down car for few seconds oso wet liao.. Den drove back home safely.. Tired.. -.-

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

~2nd day of orientation..~

Today orientation started at 9.. -.- Decided to go by KTM n LRT.. So yesterday nite called LBH said dat i fetch HIM go Serdang KTM station.. When i reached his hse, i were called to park de car.. I wonder y.. Den he said wait for LWK to come.. Den i asked y.. He said cuz all oso go by KTM n LRT by MY CAR... -.- So once again i became a driver whr i dun even noe abt dis previously... Damn.. Suan.. When LWK's car reached, 4 ppl got down.. LWK, Vic, Mee Sheng, n William.. -.- Total is 5 ppl.. At 1st LBH said his mom fetch them 1.. So at dis time i asked him 1 question.. "Ur mom drive lorry send u all go KTM station?" After dat safely reached KTM station.. A little scratch at de tyre thr cuz "touched" de devider at payment counter thr.. Parked.. N go buy ticket thr.. Den remembered abt my 'touch n go' card.. So went back n take.. Haha.. Used it for KTM n LRT.. Same KTM wif them, different LRT cuz i used TnG so went in 1st n took LRT.. Didnt wait for them.. Cuz we alrdy late n not necessary gua.. -.- Reached Wangsa Maju took a bus up to TARC.. 9.30++ alrdy.. Ask de guard abt location of de blog but stil got lost.. Den asked some senior only reached de hall.. Zz.. Sat down beside Chee Wei.. Election begins n if not mistaken my course representative is Edison.. -.- 1 of de ex-CP student who changed scu if not mistaken.. Den some briefing.. After finish went to canteen wif Chee Wei.. Ate chicken chop rice.. Juz RM 3.. ^^ Den found LWK n William at blog H.. They didnt make student ID card cuz too many ppl.. So gather wif Chee Wei at canteen.. Got to noe dat they are going to TS so no nid fetch them back.. So i go back to KTM station 1st.. Reached home, den out again go pos office post my cousin change scu de documents to aunt.. Den got back home.. Wat a busy day.. Zz.. But better than stay at home Pokemon.. ^^ Dats all today..

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

~TARC Orientation 1st day~

Early in de morning 8 a.m start journey to TARC wif Chee Wei.. Reached thr abt 9++.. Sat at canteen.. Den Mee Sheng n Ash came.. Around 10 a.m go to de hall.. Changed into TARC t-shirt.. White wif red line collar n some lining.. Not so bad.. Sat at 1st row... Lucky no such thing as called up to de stage.. Listened to some boring briefing.. Principal n senior officers came n go.. Principal is Miss Yoong if not mistaken.. =P Head of school n lecturers came n go.. Den lined up at out of hall.. Course by course go to own 'future' exam halls n classes.. After dat its hotel management time... Walau eh....... Cincai take a look oso can saw 1 hundred... Duno total how many hundred ppl in hotel management.. Hmm.. Future competitors... Frankly speaking not much leng lui.. Quite a number of leng zai.. Some hair very yeng zai o... N hotel many girls oso quite tall or same height wif me.. Some of cuz shorter but...... So no sign of dan dan today.. Den take a tour around TARC... Omg.. TARC is not big.. It's HUGE.... So hot n thirsty some more wan go round through all de blogsss... So sweat.... -.- Didnt pay attention at wat blog wat blog oso.. Juz walk walk walk.. Zz... After finish me n Chee Wei go to canteen again.. Mee Sheng joined us after dat.. Eat sambil take a look around.. Saw some mui mui zai.. Wat age o... Looks like so small.. Like primary scu only.. N some guys n girls wear til very yeng o.. Mayb cuz of de orientation odyssey nite n talentime nite.. Some sort of talent competition n prom nite.. -.- After finish eating den back home.. So tired.. How will it be if i go by ktm n lrt.. I wonder.. Zz...

Saturday, May 10, 2008

~Ordinary~

Perhaps 80% of ppl will make "rich" as their target of life.. Mayb thr shouldn't be a limit to wealth dat we'll owned.. But in my opinion.. Wat I wan is an ordinary simple life.. I cant see de point of risking in order to make extra money whereas I got wat I need n live on it.. Wealth doesn't seems to make someone's life perfect.. How much we need depends on wat type of person we are.. Ordinary doesn't means dat I won't go for promotion or I won't pick up money found on de floor.. As long as I hv a job, enuf income, no hunger, comfortable hse, no debt, no risking, no losing dats it.. Wat else I nid.. I will work for promotion, I will do my best, but I wont fight for it.. U can tell de difference.. But dat is long long time planning.. In front of my eyes is 2 years of diploma, 2 years of advance diploma.. Dat is 4 years time.. Who noes wat can happen in 4 years time.. So to me it's pointless to think so far.. No offense but to me it's not necessary..

Friday, May 9, 2008

~孤独~

又到半夜了…根本想不到有什么可以做… MSN 里没人在线…拿起电话想要找个人来 sms 解闷…打好讯息…翻开电话簿…发现原来我没几个朋友可以 sms 聊天罢了…原来我这个人做得还蛮失败…没什么好说了…早点睡吧…睡醒了就是新的一天了…

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

~无聊的夜晚~

坐在电脑前又睡不着就开小孩不笨 1 来看…看到眼泪都流了不少…然后又开friendster的message…又再流泪因为读了一篇感人的悲剧…弄到双眼都肿了…真无聊…今天虽然有点累但是就是睡不着…黑眼圈越来越深了…昨天也不好睡…本来一心开心去喝茶的…越喝越“开心”…给人“过桥”过得很爽…真厉害…还不够明显吗?还亲口说什么麻烦我…二人世界还会叫我们去喝茶…昨晚的茶喝的还真“爽”…不好意识…我就是不会往好方面想…我就是小气…我就是不爽人被人当作司机…我不会帮那些人找接口…我不懂得看开…我忍…不睡只会对自己身体不好…我没那么笨…这次就当作做善事…我不是圣人…没那么好心…我只帮该帮的人…而那些不是朋友又要利用我的人麻烦闪开…要就去找别人…我没空…

~没用~

哎…发誓果然没用…只是想说就说的废话…算了吧…肥就肥咯… =.=

Sunday, May 4, 2008

~真与假~

有很多事的真与假都很难分辨得出…无论那件事是大是小都一样…人也不例外…有时候一个人对着你笑的时候,那个人的笑,是真还是假呢?有些人往往看得到的就只是表面上眼见的事和物…其实,只要把想某一件事的方式和角度稍微转一转就能看到很多不同的东西…有些甚至是你预想不到的事…有时后会羡慕那些人…想法永远都那么单纯…但是当你看到他们哪单纯想法如何被人利用但求达到目的完全不理会别人的感受的时候,会为他们感到很不公平…那些羡慕的感觉渐渐的消失…最讨厌就是耍心机一心只想要利用别人的人…但除了讨厌就只能讨厌…他们还是要把自己献上让人耍我也没办法…只能说那些人心机太厉害了…不想被人家利用就只好懂得看人…了解他们的思想,就没那么容易被利用到…慢慢地,越来越喜欢跟他们玩心理战了…对我来说,是件很刺激的事…看到他们无法达到目的的样子会觉得痛快…但是,在另一方面,慢慢地把自己也变成爱耍心机的人…但是没办法…在未来社会里,要面对懂得耍心机的人更多甚至更厉害…要保护自己唯一的方法就是把自己变得更强…看戏常看到,出卖你的人往往就是你最信任的人…现实永远都是残酷的…

Friday, May 2, 2008

~无题~

其实做人应该是可以很简单的吧…但世事都是会常不如意…反而有时候会觉得好笑…举个例子…以前的我常常会想尽办法接近LBH他们,让自己成为他们的朋友…结果不太理想还一次一次的失望…到现在,我已经不想再难为他们,想让自己也好过些然后选择不把他们当作朋友了…突然LBH又跑过来说什么‘你也是我朋友啊’,‘难道你不把我当做朋友吗?’之类的话…没有开心的成分,反而觉得好笑…人生永远都是酱的吧…是叫做天意弄人吗?是自己幼稚罢了吧…算了…也不会有人介意…自己不后悔就够了…

Thursday, May 1, 2008

~1st May 08~

Today went to my mom's uncle's funeral.. It was a pretty hot day.. Wore black t-shirt to show our respect to de dead.. Meet back mom's side de relatives.. As i can remember de last time saw them is 3 or 4 years be4 de CNY.. Most of de cousins changed face liao.. Too bad no leng zai leng lui.. Last time leng zai de had became fat guy.. Fatter than me.. XD Got 1 even got tattoo.. O.o Duno is permanent or not.. No talk to him oso.. Not so familiar.. Last time we talked were when i'm like standard 6?.. -.- After burned de 'colok' stood aside.. Saw grandparents cried.. Den all ppl around oso started to cry again.. Sad situation.. Duno wat to do.. Stood like an idiot.. Get to lunch next.. It's not bad.. =P Ate quite a lot.. Den all sat down chit chat.. Around 4 p.m parents decided to go back.. So burned de 'colok' again n started our journey back.. Too hot n tired so slept in de car.. Stopped at Semenyih to hv dinner.. EAT again.. Reach home liao alrdy half dead.. Stil nid to help wif hse work.. After dat on MSN.. After a while den LBH came n 'hihi' n asked y my title write like dat.. I didnt tell y.. No reason to explain so much.. Den chat a little n i asked him 'no go improve ur relationship meh?'.. He said 'alrdy improve lo.. u oso my fren ma'.. Den he asked 'u no see me as fren meh?' I didnt answer his question.. I changed de topic.. If reli wan me to answer it mayb 'no'.. Sorry to say so.. U may think i'm so childish n watever it can be but i reli got exhausted.. I hate to pretend like ntg happen when thr IS a thorn inside.. Like now is oso good.. I'll say watever i think i wan n no more hard feeling since no more feeling abt dis frenship.. Juz feel so idiot when tot abt de 'Titanic' event at Kem Herba n de letter i wrote to LWK together wif his bd present duno wat year.. Now LWK n me no say a word.. Haha.. Good thing lai de.. No nid force myself to smile n talk.. Mayb many ppl will ask 'nid make til like dis meh?'.. Duno leh.. Suan la.. Tired.. Dun wan think liao..

Thursday, April 24, 2008

~21.48~

不知为什么在这分钟坐在电脑前的肥仔突然心酸酸有点想哭的感觉…
是有什么想不开吗?想太多了吗?
他自己也不晓得…脑里有些片段一段一段的闪过…
慢慢的让他回想起这几年发生过的事…
小小的眼睛无意中流下了滴眼泪…

~无药可救~

一个人做错了,知错,悔改还不赖…但如果一个人一错再错还是没有悔改之心就真的没得救了…看着表弟依然知错不改真的拿他没办法…问心,我真的很想他尽快离开这个家…免得再惹事了…来了那么久不见得让我们家里任何一个人开心过…走远点吧…至少妈妈会少个烦恼…

Saturday, April 19, 2008

~Steamboat~

Today went to Lili hse steamboat.. Overall enjoyed myself.. XD Ate a lot.. More if compared to bbq at Carmen's celebration.. Juz duno y de couple sit so far away n didnt talk a word.. U noe who i meant.. Suan le ba.. Dun 8 ppl thing.. Cant help oso.. But if can de hua find some1 talk to PL ba.. I reli felt dat LBH did try.. But i cant feel dat PL is doing her best.. Juz suggesting.. Not a must.. Dun wan talk oso nvm.. Forbidden Kingdom a... Duno wan use money go watch movie again or not.. Haiz.. Lately duno y.. Felt like kinda dun like de way Tae talks.. He juz said watever he wan too straight.. Nvr think abt wat ppl will feel.. Until spoke out something dat makes every1 silence only will stop talking.. Wan talk to him later sure say I always like dat de la.. Dun like ma dun talk lo.. Make me sometime reli dun wan to look at him when he talking n dun answer him.. Zz.. Suan le ba.. Dat is Tae Jin Hui.. Sudden presence of someone makes me so uncomfortable.. He dun seems too yong sui but juz dun like to hv him around.. Duno y.. Even de conversation will be paused for a long time when he is thr.. But he hv de right to be anywhr he wan so cant do anything oso.. Many unexpected things happened n dis steamboat is not as expected.. But stil ok la.. Enjoyed my 'last meal' happily.. CHOI!! ^^ Last meal be4 on diet.. I'M ON DIET!! I dun wan to hear ppl say to me, "Eh, u seems fat liao wor..".. >< Hate dat.. I oso noe la.. My room got long mirror... Haiz.. Jia you ba TKC!! U can do it!! Gambate!! ^^

Thursday, April 17, 2008

~思想与想法~

一个人的思想可以很单纯简单也可以很深奥很复杂…不同的人对于同一件事可以有很多不同的想法…而那些想法不见得有对与错之分…别人不赞同你的想法并不代表错…只可以说意见不合或人各有志…我们无法改变其他人的想法…更不可能强逼他去接受和赞同你的想法…唯一能做的就是表明你的想法让他自己去思考…接受与否不在我们的控制范围内…我们的想法未必一定是对的…也许只是个人的想法…有时候会觉得人类很深奥…我们永远无法知道一个人真正在想些什么…厉害伪装自己的人更是恐怖…但是回头想想,也许我们根本就不用知道别人在想什么…做好自己就已经足够了…问心无愧…别人要假就让他去假吧…辛苦的只是他自己…不见得会影响到我们…酱做人不就简单多了…何必去拆侧这个那个的…日子过的轻松开心点,人都会长命些…

~责任~

每个人都有属于自己的身份…在家作为儿女,在外身为朋友,等等…而每个身份都有自己该承担的责任…我们永远都被这些责任搞得疲累,烦恼,甚至有时连呼吸都困难…其实这些根本就是多余的…只要尽力而为,过得了自己也对得起别人就好了…过于固执只会把自己逼向绝路…但如果这世界上的每个人都哪么心水清就不会有心理医生这个职业了…责任…反问回自己尽了自己的责任吗?

Sunday, April 13, 2008

~Carmen burfday~

Reach her hse by 8+.. Sat down n start my 'work'... Ate quite a lot.. Haiz.. Every1 is saying de same thing.. Fat!! Suan le ba.. Eat is an enjoyable action.. Sometimes juz lost control on it.. Bought a pair of earring.. Gap fan wif Gee.. Not cheap wan o... Must hv de ability to earn money be4 DanDan appear.. Chamz.. Not reli in good mood.. On de way to Bt. 9 kena saman.. Den knew something abt BHeng n PLim.. Dun hv +ve opinion abt dis.. Haiz.. Back home my dad asked me wat happened to de front tyre ring.. A crack is thr.. Wat a bad day.. Haiz.. Anyway.. Celebrated her early burfday quite happily.. Ate a slice of cake.. Packed.. Den back home.. Tired....

~不明白~

真的搞不明白自己在想些什么…明明口口声声讲他的事已经不关我的事…却心里还是看不开…还会想去知道些关于他的事…这当然不会是男男关系…其实为什么我要那么介意这一切…我所做的决定感觉上很幼稚…实际上也真的幼稚…但是算了…只要我自己开心就好…不需要别人的认同…

Friday, April 11, 2008

~Untitled~

Haiz.. I think i'm going to stay at home den everyday travel d.. Cuz my mom told me a lot.. Abt she duno when she dies.. She wan to be wif me when she stil able to do so.. A lot a lot.. Haiz... Wat she said is true oso.. Its reli not de rite time to do watever i wan to.. Many other aspects should be included for consideration.. Suan le ba.. Nid to face de reality.. I must do wat i should do.. Gave up.. ><

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

~无题~

最近很空闲…差不多每天都坐在电脑前看戏,打机,聊天,上网等等…就当作是给自己休息吧…忙碌的生活还没开始…想在还有机会的时候偷偷懒,做些无聊事…以后也许不再哪么空闲了…

之前听到万兴和她好像有出街…这是件好事…虽然很想但没当面问他…因为我对自己说已经不关我的事了…没必要去打听…听说了,就算了…何必又去烦人家…自己的事都搞不好还想去理人家的事…

每天没事做就想了以后的事…以后的我们会怎样?一切都在慢慢的改变着…毕竟永远不变的只有改变…每个人都将有自己该走的路…分离是迟早的事…盼望多年后的我们依然能约出来喝茶聊天就好了…

跟他们绝交是自己的选择…虽然没有后悔,但有时候想起以前的事心还是有点酸…那天Matt问我有必要做到酱咩?我只能说也许酱对谁都好…就当作是个教训吧…像现在也很好啊…跟志伟他们喝茶的时候傻仔还会对着我讲笑…只是感觉不同了…

有很多很多事想要写…太久没blog了…看到你们的blog也没什么变动就懒得去blog了…哈哈…打字都迟钝了…是时候该blog多点了…

Thursday, April 3, 2008

~回忆~

回忆是美好的…睡不着突然想起Kem Herba 的事情…想起很多很多…许下的承诺,已经作废了…因为已经不可能实现了…有句话说的对…永远不变的只有改变…我们每个都在随着成长而改变…果然没有东西是永固不变的…唯一留下的只有回忆…唯一能做的就是尽量去珍惜和创造更多美好的回忆…好让以后当我们回想起来的时候,脸上是带着笑容的…

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

~绿茶生日~

18岁咯!大个仔咯!要乖咯!o(∩_∩)o
本来帮他庆祝生日还很兴奋的…
但收礼物后好像有点失望还是什么我不懂…
但听圆说他是开心的…
最好是开心咯…
我这世人第一次送酱贵的礼物…
还要是我自己很很很喜欢的东西…
希望他不会乱丢咯…
总之开心就好…
生日快乐……

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

~已成定局~

报名表已经交上去了...一切都已定了...只是等开学和找房子租...不用在想酱多了...Tarc Setapak...今天第一次进到去有点紧张...我未来四年就是在那里度过了...哈哈...真没想到世事总是那么不幸...之前还想跟他们划清界线...现在又跟他们读同一间学院...但不同课程应该也不会怎么碰面吧...只是志伟跟他们住在一起...我也不打算跟他们一起租房子...他们也不会打算叫我一起的啦...所以想多也是废的...反正已成定局就做好准备努力的读书吧...加油加油... o(∩_∩)o

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

~烦啊!~

哎...真的不懂要进哪一间Ktar好...Perak的就有个block for hotel management...但是在Setapak就有朋友照应...虽然说有朋友也帮不上些什么...但人生路不熟...有熟人会比较好吧...权,兴和志伟都是在Setapak读...还一起租房...有点不想跟他们扯上关系了...感觉有点幼稚...好烦哦...他们已经计划好应该不会改变计划了...只是自己不该被他们影响到...但是想到自己一个人读好像有点...头快要爆炸了...

~刺激的一天~

今天发生蛮多事...很刺激...例如在一天内走完MidValley和TheMines,在highway中间走石头路,驾车没看到红灯差一点撞到devider,给同一只猫吓到几次,吃火锅旁边有个傻佬...刺激完了回到家就很累了...该休息了...明天还要忙...

Sunday, March 16, 2008

~反感~

真不明白他在想什么...他的所作所为让我感到他越来越假...是偏见吗?我自己也不清楚...分手了就算了啦...为什么还要对身边的人讲这些那些的...对他的好朋友说就算了...竟然对一个我真的想不到的人,Tae,讲他还放不开的事...不懂为什么总是觉得他在利用他试探MY...有什么可能跟一个从来都不会对他讲心事的人突然讲酱多...我竟然还变成好像很想他们不会复合的坏人...讲真我不想...因为我真的觉得不适合...但决定权当然在她手中...总之我对他越来越反感了...觉得他很深奥,很假,很恐怖...但也不关我的事了...我跟他已经没关系了...只是不甘心Tae不清楚事情还用他的那些想法来劝MY接受回他...讲到他有多惨...随便吧...轮不到我来批评任何人...也不需要任何人来批评我...总之做了决定就别后悔了...自己想清楚吧...

Friday, March 14, 2008

~生日快乐~

你的生日到了···
没准备到任何礼物···
也没什么期望···
只望你会有个精彩的18岁生日···
今年没机会跟你庆祝生日···
会有明年吗?
无所谓啦···
开心就好···
人该为自己而活···
为了一点事导致自己不开心是很无谓的···
但我再也不会插手过问你的事了···
所以自己看着办吧···
愿你会永远快乐···

Thursday, March 13, 2008

~庆功宴~

今晚去了Milwaukee的隔壁餐厅坐···喝了杯Mocha blended···RM 9···吃饱了,喝完了,聊够了,就回家了···跟他们的感觉越来越陌生···但也在预料之中···无所谓了···这也是我想要的···虽然说是celebration···但有什么好庆祝的吗?拿成绩出来讲又好像在窜···没意思···无聊的一晚···

~Next level~

SPM result is out.. Actually it should bring happiness.. But it's not as it should be.. No special feel.. A bit surprise.. Making ppl kinda wonder y ppl like me can get such result.. Quite sad as i couldn't feel anyone is happy for me although i admit i dun deserve such result.. No matter what.. Dis ends secondary scu life.. Developing to next lvl.. Feeling a bit nervous.. Not sure if i'm reli ready for dis.. But life is juz gotta move on.. Ready or not does not change de fact.. By de way.. TKC is stil TKC.. He is ntg but a happy fat guy..

Saturday, March 8, 2008

~无题~

刚才看了10000 BC…蛮好看…还有很多戏想看…唉…
放工回家那时候万兴知道了我们去看戏就讲“看戏也没叫我,算啦”…
看完戏喝茶遇到他们…突然问起我们去那里就讲了我们去看戏…Kam Fai 听了就说了同样的一番话…“看戏没叫我算了”…
心里在想…有问题吗?看戏就一定要叫你们吗?你们也常自己出去吧…我们已经分成两组了…不用讲也知道…加上不想见到某某人…心情还没恢复…难道你们认为我们必需要有你们在才可以聚在一起吗?不会吧…
我们不是同一班人了…大节日也许还会聚在一起…但看戏就不需要了吧…不是说绝…这对我来说就是事实…
想对兴说,在那个晚上,放了你下车之后,我已经对你说…U have lost a fren…只是你听不到…我也已经慢慢适应着了…也许很快你就会感受到我的冷淡…不为什么…只是觉得不需要再委屈自己了…但我盼望你的生活依然会很快乐…真的不想再看到你流泪了…加油吧…这番话我觉得你不需要知道…所以收在心间里就好了…

Thursday, March 6, 2008

~我放弃了~

本性难移果然是真的…我无法再伪装下去了…我不可以扮到真的什么都不去问…我真的不可以…但结果还是一样…所以我放弃了…彻底的放弃了…这番话好像听了好几次…但我发誓…这次是真的…尽力了就该放弃了…不需要死缠烂打…没人错…只是一些幼稚的想法在搞怪…18岁了…是时候长大了…思想也该成熟了…不可能的事何必去勉强呢…算了吧…已经完了…

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

~说话吧~

再废的话说了也许还会笑笑…但如果连话都说不出口就算坐得再近也没意思了…发现自己的嘴巴永远都静不了…但有谁是在听我讲的呢?真的有那么难吗?有话就说吧…每次问到这个问题就会说,“你不是我,你不明白的…” 算了…我永远都不会明白…也不需要明白…别误会…我不是又在自报自弃了…只是不想再想我不拥有的东西…

Thursday, February 28, 2008

~Plz give me a break...~

Y so many things can happen in de same day? Car accident.. Cousin...bro... Y i nid to face all dis? I nid a break.. I'm freaking tired... Everyday drive, work, scolded, smile.. IT IS TIRING... Back home hv to hide.. Hide all de negative side to reduce mom's burden.. Only can face ppl wif a smiling face.. Hou Nam's matter cant tell parents.. I dun wan to make them sad for him.. But he juz wont change.. Wat should i do.. Who can teach me... I hate to face everything alone.. It's torturing.. College, car r oso de prob now.. Plz give me a break... I nid a good rest.. I'll be crazy if keep going on like dis.. Acting hapi as when i'm not.. It's damn tiring.. GOD plz help me if u can... I dun nid sympathy.. I juz nid some1 or any1 to listen... Further comment dun seems to be needed.. Dis is life.. Every1 hv their own prob.. I'm not asking for anything besides a true fren.. So.. Get de f*cking out of my sight if u hv prob wif me.. Accept me or get away from me.. Wat's definition for true fren? No definition.. Dun tell me dat u dun even noe when u r ur true self.. Too much of thinking.. Gotta rest be4 too exhausted..

Sunday, February 24, 2008

~有心无力~

看到周围的朋友酱的样子自己的心情也不好过…但感情事想帮也帮不了…多问几句只会领到他们更烦…所以就只好收口让他们自己去解决好了…TKC真的变了…变得可以控制自己了…也没那么烦了…会是件好事吧…话说多了会没话说吗?好像是会…再迟点就算见面都会无话可说吗?不知道…让时间来回答吧…好讨厌有心无力的感觉…心里闷闷的好难受…但还是算了…当没件事吧…继续做每天笑个不停的TKC就好了…

Saturday, February 23, 2008

~Life~

前几天伟明问了一个问题…What is life? 我有认真的想过…但还是想不出答案…也许每个人的答案都是不一样的…对我来说,life,简单开心就好…平平静静度过一生就好…不需要大富大贵…不需要想酱多…饿不死就够…可以吗?相信只要坚持是做得到的…祝我好运吧…

~斗气~

为何一对男女那么喜欢斗气呢?是男生不够体谅还是女生野蛮?或者是沟通上出了问题…真的不怕玩出火吗?难道只有我会酱想吗?还是真的要等到后悔才甘心…看到酱的情况都不知道该说什么了…你们自己想清楚吧…后悔的时候别在那边哭到那么惨…劝也劝了,该说的也说了…剩下的只是你们自己的决定…自己选择吧…

~另一个方式~

也许是因为圆的comment导致我有所改变…就像她说的…关心并不是一定要去打探他的消息去问长问短…简单的陪伴也许已经足够了…虽然感觉和事实上都什么都不知道…但酱也许已经够了…该知道的迟早都会知道的…我竟然控制得了我自己不去八…对任何人来说都该是好事吧…至少会让身边的人舒服些…

Friday, February 22, 2008

~爱~

如何才算爱一个人?爱到为他死 算爱吗?每天说爱你算是很爱吗?爱是一种感觉…爱也是无法解释的…永久的爱存在吗?这就要看个人对于爱的定义…有人觉得他不想我,他不爱我了…他没抽时间陪我,他不够爱我…也许有时候回头想一想,自己本身爱对方吗?如果答案是爱的话不就足够了吗…不要求回报的付出和爱才是最坚定不移爱…不需要太在乎他有多爱你,多想想你有多爱他…

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

~无聊~

好久没blog了…新年快过了…没特别的回忆…普普通通的感觉…如常的聚在一起…最近很累…是迟睡的原因吧…工作如常…闷到死…有好多东西想要买和换…车和电话等等…随便啦…再看看怎样咯…红包等十五才拆…希望有多一点…最近发现我可以控制不去八了…他也少了个人烦他…哈哈…是件好事吧…随便吧…累…

Sunday, January 27, 2008

~还是爱吗?~

世上最难懂的应该是感情吧…在一起了难道不是相爱吗?竟然是相爱那为什么还会想到要放开对方呢?有人说是因为爱她所以放开她…放开了会好过吗?选择放开的人是个自私的人…你有想过她的感受吗?如果说是爱让你有勇气选择放手,那为什么你的爱无法让你努力想办法来维持你们的感情…竟然你讲到那么爱她就不该放弃…唯一放弃的理由就是你不再爱她了…因为爱而放弃只是个借口…放开她表示你伟大吗?一点都不是…反而显出你的自私和愚蠢以及你对她的爱是有限的…你若是那么爱她就该除掉所有的问题来好好的爱她…别再有那么愚蠢的想法了…有些话说了出口就没有回头的余地了…再也不想看到任何一个人受伤害了…但愿你们可以永远幸福快乐…

Sunday, January 20, 2008

~生日快乐! ~

不经不觉你的生日又到了…18岁了…哈哈…想起去年送你的礼物真丢脸…今年没为你准备到什么礼物…不好意思噢…若有机会再补回给你咯…你的生日快乐吗?盼望你会有个美好的18岁生日…把所有烦恼和不开心丢开…但愿你未来人生里只有快乐和幸福的存在…再见咯…

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

~All de best...~

Sek.. I reli dun hv any idea wat should i say or mayb i shouldn't say anything.. But i reli couldn't juz sit thr n do ntg.. Atleast let me write in dis blog.. Mayb it's reli time to try n let go.. Plz dun misunderstood.. I dun hv any bad purpose.. It's juz dat u can take it as a time to consider whether u r ready for dis relationship or not.. Use dis time to recover every single good n bad memories n do de rite decision.. Rather than continue like u used to be.. However all dis is juz my stupid thinking.. No matter wat.. U always own our support n we r always thr if u nid us.. Besides, thr is a 24 hours 'driver'(me) here at ur service.. ^^ So hope u will walk over dis soon n all de best..

Sunday, January 13, 2008

~伤感情的话~

陈建彰…你也蛮厉害的嘛…明知不该说的话还要说…算了…反正所说的都是真的…真心话永远都会伤到某某人的…话说出口就收不回…算了…不说也是酱…说了又会怎样…不想理了…每天见面都戴着面具真的很累…不想再酱下去了…原来我是那么不可信的…折抵失望了…当你很信任一个人而那个人反而对你说信不过你的感觉真的很痛…但我可以怎样?是你信不过我…算了…都讲到出口了…随便啦…反正对你们来说我这个朋友可有可没吧…如你说的朋友都是要来有空就说说废话罢了…那就随便了…原来只是我自己在发梦以为跟你们算是知己称得上是半个兄弟…原来只是个普通更信不过的朋友…我知道了…也清楚了…我会反醒的…不会再烦到你们了…一直以来抱歉了…

Saturday, January 12, 2008

~无言~

话说多了会导致没话可说吗?看到一个两个无言自己也跟着沉默了…有些事想关心却无法知道…感觉越来越陌生了…可以做什么吗?没东西好做…顺其自然吧…累了…睡了…

Thursday, January 10, 2008

~沉默~

你选择保持沉默…真的只能到嘻嘻哈哈的地步吗?到尽头了吧…总是觉得我们之间有道墙…不管我怎么努力都无法穿过那道墙…是不甘心才要去八吗?是吧…没有人会觉得不是吧…那么就让它是吧…不想去解释了…一个是酱,两个都是酱…随便了…彻底累了…不想听,不想讲,只要我还会微笑就够了…讲多也是多余的…但我不会沉默,讨厌沉默,绝不沉默…三八就三八…如果可以的话我会尽力让周围的人开心…这是我唯一有足够能力做到的事情了…其它的事竟然不在我掌握之中就算了吧…想多有用吗?到头来依然是局外人…累了就该看开了…真的算了吧…

~IDC~

再次回到IDC做工…感觉还好…没比去年那么紧张…有圆,Matt,和兴陪我一起做工也蛮爽…不懂为什么…就是酱的感觉…会到几时?二月?三月?不知道…可以继续就继续…不可以的话就算了吧…也许未必要在IDC做才存到钱的…过了一月再打算吧…希望一切都进行的顺顺利利…

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

~2008~

31/12/2007 和志伟一起在金河倒数2008年的来临…金河的演唱会蛮精彩的…但是无法和你们一起倒数是个遗憾…兴奋是有的,但比预料的少…没想到会是和志伟倒数…但还蛮愉快的… ^^

1/1/2008 2008年会是个新的开始…但新的开始又会有什么变化呢?非常期待人生的下一页会出现些什么画面…不管那么多了…好好地活下去就对了…为自己也好,为谁都好,开开心心地走完这条人生路就对了…