~无题~

前几天跟志伟聊天聊到关于车的问题…我听到他说的一段话后呆了一下…他说，人比人，比死人…我们不需要把自己跟别人比…别人有什么是别人的事，自己不需要自卑或怎样…听完了我真的呆了几秒钟…虽然这些我都懂，但是好像差点被遗忘了…他讲了这段话让我想到很多东西…最近跟他越来越聊得来了…没特别原因…反正他也不难相处…聊得来就聊吧…到没话聊的时候就算了…

现在坐巴士和LRT去学院要大约两个小时…回也一样…真的觉得很浪费时间…这件事妈妈也知道…她的建议就是让我驾车去学院…但是我真的不想驾车去…想不到任何有力的接口但就是不想驾车去…Parking少，怕车的安全，塞车，车油贵…但如果不要驾车去就只有浪费两个小时搭车…要不然就搬过去那边住…妈妈很舍不得我，我是知道的…真的好烦…目前酱来回还不是很大问题…迟点学院开始有一大堆活动或考试的时候就一定很麻烦…很烦啊…根本想不到任何好的解决方法…我不想再想但不得不想…因为我不想的话谁帮我想…救命…

~26th May~

Today Hotel Management duno cuz of wat no class.. But went to coll after all.. Since got car sit n wan make student id card.. I got my id card liao lo... Haha.. ^^ Me n Chee Wei went to coll by a girl's car.. She is Cheryl.. A fren of Ming Hui.. Dat girl quite ok.. Haha.. Dun think so much a.. Especially Koh.. Hehe.. She oso wont be dan dan.. At coll make id card.. Got a car sticker form.. Copy timetable.. It's terrible.. Haiz.. Sent de declaration form.. Knew a new fren.. Eric, oso from Hotel Management de.. Different group.. Good thing cuz he is quite fan.. Gege.. Meet another fren, Yue Min, last time noe him at Vincci de.. He asked me whether i'm on diet.. Haha.. Finally got ppl ask me dat.. So hapi.. =P Chit chat a while.. Got to noe he is stil finding room mate.. Haiz.. He asked me too.. But i knew i wont stay outside.. Due to some reasons.. After dat sat at canteen wif Chee Wei waiting for de girl finish class.. LBH at thr too.. They 4 ppl rent 1 master bedroom for RM 500+.. Duno y they'll choose to share 1 room.. Mayb they wan to make sure warm enuf.. Zz.. Suan la.. None of my business.. 3 p.m de girl finish class den start journey back.. But didnt str8 away back.. Suddenly came up wif idea to go for tea.. So stopped at Steven's Corner to drink tea n chit chat.. Dat place is not bad leh.. After dat only go home.. My car park at Chee Wei's hse thr.. When reached his hse dat time it was raining cat n dog... Long time no c such a heavy rain liao.. -.- Get down car for few seconds oso wet liao.. Den drove back home safely.. Tired.. -.-

~2nd day of orientation..~

Today orientation started at 9.. -.- Decided to go by KTM n LRT.. So yesterday nite called LBH said dat i fetch HIM go Serdang KTM station.. When i reached his hse, i were called to park de car.. I wonder y.. Den he said wait for LWK to come.. Den i asked y.. He said cuz all oso go by KTM n LRT by MY CAR... -.- So once again i became a driver whr i dun even noe abt dis previously... Damn.. Suan.. When LWK's car reached, 4 ppl got down.. LWK, Vic, Mee Sheng, n William.. -.- Total is 5 ppl.. At 1st LBH said his mom fetch them 1.. So at dis time i asked him 1 question.. "Ur mom drive lorry send u all go KTM station?" After dat safely reached KTM station.. A little scratch at de tyre thr cuz "touched" de devider at payment counter thr.. Parked.. N go buy ticket thr.. Den remembered abt my 'touch n go' card.. So went back n take.. Haha.. Used it for KTM n LRT.. Same KTM wif them, different LRT cuz i used TnG so went in 1st n took LRT.. Didnt wait for them.. Cuz we alrdy late n not necessary gua.. -.- Reached Wangsa Maju took a bus up to TARC.. 9.30++ alrdy.. Ask de guard abt location of de blog but stil got lost.. Den asked some senior only reached de hall.. Zz.. Sat down beside Chee Wei.. Election begins n if not mistaken my course representative is Edison.. -.- 1 of de ex-CP student who changed scu if not mistaken.. Den some briefing.. After finish went to canteen wif Chee Wei.. Ate chicken chop rice.. Juz RM 3.. ^^ Den found LWK n William at blog H.. They didnt make student ID card cuz too many ppl.. So gather wif Chee Wei at canteen.. Got to noe dat they are going to TS so no nid fetch them back.. So i go back to KTM station 1st.. Reached home, den out again go pos office post my cousin change scu de documents to aunt.. Den got back home.. Wat a busy day.. Zz.. But better than stay at home Pokemon.. ^^ Dats all today..

~TARC Orientation 1st day~

Early in de morning 8 a.m start journey to TARC wif Chee Wei.. Reached thr abt 9++.. Sat at canteen.. Den Mee Sheng n Ash came.. Around 10 a.m go to de hall.. Changed into TARC t-shirt.. White wif red line collar n some lining.. Not so bad.. Sat at 1st row... Lucky no such thing as called up to de stage.. Listened to some boring briefing.. Principal n senior officers came n go.. Principal is Miss Yoong if not mistaken.. =P Head of school n lecturers came n go.. Den lined up at out of hall.. Course by course go to own 'future' exam halls n classes.. After dat its hotel management time... Walau eh....... Cincai take a look oso can saw 1 hundred... Duno total how many hundred ppl in hotel management.. Hmm.. Future competitors... Frankly speaking not much leng lui.. Quite a number of leng zai.. Some hair very yeng zai o... N hotel many girls oso quite tall or same height wif me.. Some of cuz shorter but...... So no sign of dan dan today.. Den take a tour around TARC... Omg.. TARC is not big.. It's HUGE.... So hot n thirsty some more wan go round through all de blogsss... So sweat.... -.- Didnt pay attention at wat blog wat blog oso.. Juz walk walk walk.. Zz... After finish me n Chee Wei go to canteen again.. Mee Sheng joined us after dat.. Eat sambil take a look around.. Saw some mui mui zai.. Wat age o... Looks like so small.. Like primary scu only.. N some guys n girls wear til very yeng o.. Mayb cuz of de orientation odyssey nite n talentime nite.. Some sort of talent competition n prom nite.. -.- After finish eating den back home.. So tired.. How will it be if i go by ktm n lrt.. I wonder.. Zz...

~Ordinary~

Perhaps 80% of ppl will make "rich" as their target of life.. Mayb thr shouldn't be a limit to wealth dat we'll owned.. But in my opinion.. Wat I wan is an ordinary simple life.. I cant see de point of risking in order to make extra money whereas I got wat I need n live on it.. Wealth doesn't seems to make someone's life perfect.. How much we need depends on wat type of person we are.. Ordinary doesn't means dat I won't go for promotion or I won't pick up money found on de floor.. As long as I hv a job, enuf income, no hunger, comfortable hse, no debt, no risking, no losing dats it.. Wat else I nid.. I will work for promotion, I will do my best, but I wont fight for it.. U can tell de difference.. But dat is long long time planning.. In front of my eyes is 2 years of diploma, 2 years of advance diploma.. Dat is 4 years time.. Who noes wat can happen in 4 years time.. So to me it's pointless to think so far.. No offense but to me it's not necessary..

~孤独~

又到半夜了…根本想不到有什么可以做… MSN 里没人在线…拿起电话想要找个人来 sms 解闷…打好讯息…翻开电话簿…发现原来我没几个朋友可以 sms 聊天罢了…原来我这个人做得还蛮失败…没什么好说了…早点睡吧…睡醒了就是新的一天了…

~无聊的夜晚~

坐在电脑前又睡不着就开小孩不笨 1 来看…看到眼泪都流了不少…然后又开friendster的message…又再流泪因为读了一篇感人的悲剧…弄到双眼都肿了…真无聊…今天虽然有点累但是就是睡不着…黑眼圈越来越深了…昨天也不好睡…本来一心开心去喝茶的…越喝越“开心”…给人“过桥”过得很爽…真厉害…还不够明显吗？还亲口说什么麻烦我…二人世界还会叫我们去喝茶…昨晚的茶喝的还真“爽”…不好意识…我就是不会往好方面想…我就是小气…我就是不爽人被人当作司机…我不会帮那些人找接口…我不懂得看开…我忍…不睡只会对自己身体不好…我没那么笨…这次就当作做善事…我不是圣人…没那么好心…我只帮该帮的人…而那些不是朋友又要利用我的人麻烦闪开…要就去找别人…我没空…

~没用~

哎…发誓果然没用…只是想说就说的废话…算了吧…肥就肥咯… =.=

~真与假~

有很多事的真与假都很难分辨得出…无论那件事是大是小都一样…人也不例外…有时候一个人对着你笑的时候，那个人的笑，是真还是假呢？有些人往往看得到的就只是表面上眼见的事和物…其实，只要把想某一件事的方式和角度稍微转一转就能看到很多不同的东西…有些甚至是你预想不到的事…有时后会羡慕那些人…想法永远都那么单纯…但是当你看到他们哪单纯想法如何被人利用但求达到目的完全不理会别人的感受的时候，会为他们感到很不公平…那些羡慕的感觉渐渐的消失…最讨厌就是耍心机一心只想要利用别人的人…但除了讨厌就只能讨厌…他们还是要把自己献上让人耍我也没办法…只能说那些人心机太厉害了…不想被人家利用就只好懂得看人…了解他们的思想，就没那么容易被利用到…慢慢地，越来越喜欢跟他们玩心理战了…对我来说，是件很刺激的事…看到他们无法达到目的的样子会觉得痛快…但是，在另一方面，慢慢地把自己也变成爱耍心机的人…但是没办法…在未来社会里，要面对懂得耍心机的人更多甚至更厉害…要保护自己唯一的方法就是把自己变得更强…看戏常看到，出卖你的人往往就是你最信任的人…现实永远都是残酷的…

~无题~

其实做人应该是可以很简单的吧…但世事都是会常不如意…反而有时候会觉得好笑…举个例子…以前的我常常会想尽办法接近LBH他们，让自己成为他们的朋友…结果不太理想还一次一次的失望…到现在，我已经不想再难为他们，想让自己也好过些然后选择不把他们当作朋友了…突然LBH又跑过来说什么‘你也是我朋友啊’，‘难道你不把我当做朋友吗？’之类的话…没有开心的成分，反而觉得好笑…人生永远都是酱的吧…是叫做天意弄人吗？是自己幼稚罢了吧…算了…也不会有人介意…自己不后悔就够了…

~1st May 08~

Today went to my mom's uncle's funeral.. It was a pretty hot day.. Wore black t-shirt to show our respect to de dead.. Meet back mom's side de relatives.. As i can remember de last time saw them is 3 or 4 years be4 de CNY.. Most of de cousins changed face liao.. Too bad no leng zai leng lui.. Last time leng zai de had became fat guy.. Fatter than me.. XD Got 1 even got tattoo.. O.o Duno is permanent or not.. No talk to him oso.. Not so familiar.. Last time we talked were when i'm like standard 6?.. -.- After burned de 'colok' stood aside.. Saw grandparents cried.. Den all ppl around oso started to cry again.. Sad situation.. Duno wat to do.. Stood like an idiot.. Get to lunch next.. It's not bad.. =P Ate quite a lot.. Den all sat down chit chat.. Around 4 p.m parents decided to go back.. So burned de 'colok' again n started our journey back.. Too hot n tired so slept in de car.. Stopped at Semenyih to hv dinner.. EAT again.. Reach home liao alrdy half dead.. Stil nid to help wif hse work.. After dat on MSN.. After a while den LBH came n 'hihi' n asked y my title write like dat.. I didnt tell y.. No reason to explain so much.. Den chat a little n i asked him 'no go improve ur relationship meh?'.. He said 'alrdy improve lo.. u oso my fren ma'.. Den he asked 'u no see me as fren meh?' I didnt answer his question.. I changed de topic.. If reli wan me to answer it mayb 'no'.. Sorry to say so.. U may think i'm so childish n watever it can be but i reli got exhausted.. I hate to pretend like ntg happen when thr IS a thorn inside.. Like now is oso good.. I'll say watever i think i wan n no more hard feeling since no more feeling abt dis frenship.. Juz feel so idiot when tot abt de 'Titanic' event at Kem Herba n de letter i wrote to LWK together wif his bd present duno wat year.. Now LWK n me no say a word.. Haha.. Good thing lai de.. No nid force myself to smile n talk.. Mayb many ppl will ask 'nid make til like dis meh?'.. Duno leh.. Suan la.. Tired.. Dun wan think liao..