~12-01-09~

Today duno why feel blur blur.. Morning fetch my mom go Sg. Wang buy her saloon de things.. Den fetch her back n I go TARC do ID card.. To make a temporary pass for exam nid to go 4 blocks.. Ok lo.. Suan.. Den reach 2nd blocks.. Call me go back at 3 p.m.. Lunch hour no people approve de form.. Ok lo.. Go make licence.. Reached JPJ.. Park.. While I was walking to de office, many men n women keep asking "Leng zai, wan do what? Come I help u do!"... I was thinking why should I let u help when I know u wan my money... Reached office door.. Crowded.. Den 1 uncle come by me.. Ask me same question.. Ask me go take form n queue number.. He help me do.. I somehow go n do what he asked me to do.. Den he help me to fill in de form.. Ask me go photocopy some documents.. GO in n wait.. N PAY HIM RM10~! U know what? I took out RM10 from pocket n gave him.. Den walk in.. Take a sit n wait.. Den I think.. Why will I pay RM10 for him to help fill in A FORM?!! Oh my god.. What happened to me.. Den I look back at de uncle.. He's stil waiting for waterfish outside.. Walau eh.. What power he has dat makes me follow what he said? =.= Or I'm just stupid... Holy sh*t.. Wasted my Rm10 just like dat.. Soon got my licence dat cost RM30.. Included de RM10 cheated by dat uncle.. Den back to coll to gao dim de temporary pass n ID card appliation.. After finished all den back home.. Today whole day like blur blur.. Sigh... Cheated just like dat.. How stupid am I... Curse dat uncle.. Find money like dat.. Careful while walking n driving.. Curse curse curse..... =.=

~无题~

Exam is round the corner.. Stil hving fun with Luna n Shaiya.. OMG.. Pushing myself to study but failed all de time.. Suddenly tot of my poor abandoned blog so.. Here i am blogging.. Saw so many updated post from all de friends.. Realized so many things happened in juz dis 11 days of 2009.. I cant tell why but i feel uneasy abt 2009.. Hope everything will be good soon.. Everything is stolen.. Going to remake everything.. But not so into it.. I duno why.. Everyone asking why u lost all ur documents but u act like not a prob.. I duno.. What de rush.. De policeman said no compound for late remake of documents.. So what's de rush.... Unless for the student ID card only.. Cuz hving exam soon.. People always say.. 有得就必有失.. But I wonder what I've got from dis.. Experience? Perhaps.. Last week didnt gather.. Miss u guys so much.. Sei lo.. So addicted to u all.. But very hapi to hv u all dis bunch of friends.. A bunch of true friends.. Memories with u guys are de sweet memories in my life.. But of cuz included some sour n bitter.. =P But reli thanks for being a part of my life.. Although dis is juz a life.. By the way.. I duno what's so great of a life.. People born.. Lives.. Dies.. What happened in his/her life is juz a part of memory of other people.. Who cares.. As for me.. I lives.. For family.. I wouldnt say its for myself because I never able to live for myself.. I was born in dis family so i hv de responsiblity to take care of everyone that i care.. But as my mom always says.. 没有人是欠你的.. 所以我也没有欠任何人.. But I know I am de eldest n i hv to do my job.. All those things like love.. Marriage.. Are too far for me.. Leave it alone.. I dont believe faith or something called 命中注定.. All dis nonsense is juz de result of one's decision n action.. Juz like I decided to walk out of the street.. A car's driver decided to drive into de street.. And crashed.. U call dis faith? Nonsense.. I duno people who dun believe in God are called what but dats who i am.. Why people juz like to push everything to God? Its ur life.. Come on.. U made de decision n let it be and say let de God decide.. Its so irresponsible.. I do think I hv enough number of people in my life.. 1 more mayb a burden.. I cant afford anymore burden.. People always say.. Love is sweet.. But dats wrong.. Like is sweet.. Love is long lasting.. If u think somehow u already dun love someone.. Sorry to say.. U nvr love him/her before.. U juz like him/her.. I like someone.. I like everyone.. But I hate to love someone.. I'm selfish but I cant afford anymore burden.. I already cant catch my breath with current burden.. Life is annoying.. But some event between it may make us feel its juz not so bad.. Hmm.. Dis post seems to be a long 1.. Hope de next 1 will appear soon.. Be right back.. =P