~Ordinary~

Perhaps 80% of ppl will make "rich" as their target of life.. Mayb thr shouldn't be a limit to wealth dat we'll owned.. But in my opinion.. Wat I wan is an ordinary simple life.. I cant see de point of risking in order to make extra money whereas I got wat I need n live on it.. Wealth doesn't seems to make someone's life perfect.. How much we need depends on wat type of person we are.. Ordinary doesn't means dat I won't go for promotion or I won't pick up money found on de floor.. As long as I hv a job, enuf income, no hunger, comfortable hse, no debt, no risking, no losing dats it.. Wat else I nid.. I will work for promotion, I will do my best, but I wont fight for it.. U can tell de difference.. But dat is long long time planning.. In front of my eyes is 2 years of diploma, 2 years of advance diploma.. Dat is 4 years time.. Who noes wat can happen in 4 years time.. So to me it's pointless to think so far.. No offense but to me it's not necessary..

~孤独~

又到半夜了…根本想不到有什么可以做… MSN 里没人在线…拿起电话想要找个人来 sms 解闷…打好讯息…翻开电话簿…发现原来我没几个朋友可以 sms 聊天罢了…原来我这个人做得还蛮失败…没什么好说了…早点睡吧…睡醒了就是新的一天了…

~无聊的夜晚~

坐在电脑前又睡不着就开小孩不笨 1 来看…看到眼泪都流了不少…然后又开friendster的message…又再流泪因为读了一篇感人的悲剧…弄到双眼都肿了…真无聊…今天虽然有点累但是就是睡不着…黑眼圈越来越深了…昨天也不好睡…本来一心开心去喝茶的…越喝越“开心”…给人“过桥”过得很爽…真厉害…还不够明显吗？还亲口说什么麻烦我…二人世界还会叫我们去喝茶…昨晚的茶喝的还真“爽”…不好意识…我就是不会往好方面想…我就是小气…我就是不爽人被人当作司机…我不会帮那些人找接口…我不懂得看开…我忍…不睡只会对自己身体不好…我没那么笨…这次就当作做善事…我不是圣人…没那么好心…我只帮该帮的人…而那些不是朋友又要利用我的人麻烦闪开…要就去找别人…我没空…

~没用~

哎…发誓果然没用…只是想说就说的废话…算了吧…肥就肥咯… =.=

~真与假~

有很多事的真与假都很难分辨得出…无论那件事是大是小都一样…人也不例外…有时候一个人对着你笑的时候，那个人的笑，是真还是假呢？有些人往往看得到的就只是表面上眼见的事和物…其实，只要把想某一件事的方式和角度稍微转一转就能看到很多不同的东西…有些甚至是你预想不到的事…有时后会羡慕那些人…想法永远都那么单纯…但是当你看到他们哪单纯想法如何被人利用但求达到目的完全不理会别人的感受的时候，会为他们感到很不公平…那些羡慕的感觉渐渐的消失…最讨厌就是耍心机一心只想要利用别人的人…但除了讨厌就只能讨厌…他们还是要把自己献上让人耍我也没办法…只能说那些人心机太厉害了…不想被人家利用就只好懂得看人…了解他们的思想，就没那么容易被利用到…慢慢地，越来越喜欢跟他们玩心理战了…对我来说，是件很刺激的事…看到他们无法达到目的的样子会觉得痛快…但是，在另一方面，慢慢地把自己也变成爱耍心机的人…但是没办法…在未来社会里，要面对懂得耍心机的人更多甚至更厉害…要保护自己唯一的方法就是把自己变得更强…看戏常看到，出卖你的人往往就是你最信任的人…现实永远都是残酷的…

~无题~

其实做人应该是可以很简单的吧…但世事都是会常不如意…反而有时候会觉得好笑…举个例子…以前的我常常会想尽办法接近LBH他们，让自己成为他们的朋友…结果不太理想还一次一次的失望…到现在，我已经不想再难为他们，想让自己也好过些然后选择不把他们当作朋友了…突然LBH又跑过来说什么‘你也是我朋友啊’，‘难道你不把我当做朋友吗？’之类的话…没有开心的成分，反而觉得好笑…人生永远都是酱的吧…是叫做天意弄人吗？是自己幼稚罢了吧…算了…也不会有人介意…自己不后悔就够了…

~1st May 08~

Today went to my mom's uncle's funeral.. It was a pretty hot day.. Wore black t-shirt to show our respect to de dead.. Meet back mom's side de relatives.. As i can remember de last time saw them is 3 or 4 years be4 de CNY.. Most of de cousins changed face liao.. Too bad no leng zai leng lui.. Last time leng zai de had became fat guy.. Fatter than me.. XD Got 1 even got tattoo.. O.o Duno is permanent or not.. No talk to him oso.. Not so familiar.. Last time we talked were when i'm like standard 6?.. -.- After burned de 'colok' stood aside.. Saw grandparents cried.. Den all ppl around oso started to cry again.. Sad situation.. Duno wat to do.. Stood like an idiot.. Get to lunch next.. It's not bad.. =P Ate quite a lot.. Den all sat down chit chat.. Around 4 p.m parents decided to go back.. So burned de 'colok' again n started our journey back.. Too hot n tired so slept in de car.. Stopped at Semenyih to hv dinner.. EAT again.. Reach home liao alrdy half dead.. Stil nid to help wif hse work.. After dat on MSN.. After a while den LBH came n 'hihi' n asked y my title write like dat.. I didnt tell y.. No reason to explain so much.. Den chat a little n i asked him 'no go improve ur relationship meh?'.. He said 'alrdy improve lo.. u oso my fren ma'.. Den he asked 'u no see me as fren meh?' I didnt answer his question.. I changed de topic.. If reli wan me to answer it mayb 'no'.. Sorry to say so.. U may think i'm so childish n watever it can be but i reli got exhausted.. I hate to pretend like ntg happen when thr IS a thorn inside.. Like now is oso good.. I'll say watever i think i wan n no more hard feeling since no more feeling abt dis frenship.. Juz feel so idiot when tot abt de 'Titanic' event at Kem Herba n de letter i wrote to LWK together wif his bd present duno wat year.. Now LWK n me no say a word.. Haha.. Good thing lai de.. No nid force myself to smile n talk.. Mayb many ppl will ask 'nid make til like dis meh?'.. Duno leh.. Suan la.. Tired.. Dun wan think liao..