~Poker~

Just came back from PMun's hse.. At 1st planned to yc at McD.. But Koh wan play poker at PMun's hse.. So we went.. Result.. I won RM70 (including bet RM10).. Paid Koh (at 1st he say sponsor me half meaning RM5 only I sit down) RM35 so I won RM35 tonite.. Felt bad.. Won of course happi.. But won at de 1st time playing in PMun's hse wif her bro's fren seems so.. I dunno how to say.. Just bad feeling.. Hope they wont hv hard feeling (but I think they will)... Finished reporting about tonite.. Later 8 AM got class.. Dunno wan slp or not.. Surf a while more ba.. Bye...

~好心做坏事~

最近常为training的事而烦恼...

总是感觉自己很多事...

做了很多根本就不需要我去做的事...

还为同学制造烦恼...

本来就该什么都不去理...

现在想再多也没用...

就交回给他们自己解决吧...

~Work work work!~

Yesterday heard something nice from one of my classmates.. "You worked so hard for our asm.. You sacrificed so much.. Thx a lot.." Did I? No.. I felt dat I spent times playing PlantsVSZombies.. But for de menu yes.. Atleast I did worked for it.. Now stil got 3 or 4 asms in hand.. Wan to finish it faster.. Dun wanna drag til last few days before due date and rush for it.. Finish faster burden oso reduced right? Hope more groupmates will understand this.. If possible I reali wan take all the works and do it myself.. Fedup wif those who done their part but I stil have to follow up wif atleast half.. Babi betul.. But if ur Eng is so so den okay.. Fine wif me.. I can do ur work but those good Eng but not cooperating den go die la.. I dun wan to let people say I take all the works by myself and dun divide it to others and dats why I DIVIDE it.. Show some responsibility la.. It's not people wan to do all.. It's you who dun wan to do.. The little good impression of you is spoiled.. Sorry to say but dats it.. Get lost from my sight if possible..

~24 June 09~

Wow.. I didn't abandon this little space, did I? No no.. Just giving it a rest.. Rest for a longer walk.. Bla bla.. XD Today is very tiring.. Cause have to make a sample for de ala carte menu for restaurant operations next week.. Wow.. It's torturing.. I never expect DIY a menu from zero is so hard.. Have to squeeze out everything from my little brain only gao dim.. Then drove back to restaurant for lec to approve it.. It is approved.. But i got saman.. Babi.. Dat area is a no-entry area for student's vehicles.. But just few mins jeh.. De babi secu guard say it's de Student Affair Department head saw my car thr and ask them to saman.. Diu.. So DAMN free ntg to do meh... Alrdy tired some more RM10 flies away.. Reli **** lo.. Arrived home around 4+.. Thought can rest de la.. But out again to buy Hou Nam's activity books.. Den back home.. Again.. Talk.. Den get up from de chair.. Finished up all de hse works that can be done.. Den sit back on chair til now dinner.. Haha.. Be right...... BACK~! ^^ Had my dinner.. Today afternoon saw de one I dun expect to see.. Again drag my mood da~~unn~~~.. Not his fault.. My prob.. Bah.. Enough of him.. Now officially announce.. In dis couple of weeks, sorry cause I'm not joining any entertainment and dining.. Yum cha is fine.. Due to 2 reasons.. 1st.. Financial prob.. I reli dun wan to hear anything about money from my mom again as it's alrdy slotted in my daily routine.. 2nd.. 5 asms in hand.. Hvn't start any studies.. Wish to increase my CGPA by dis sem's result.. Hoping for understanding and thx if u understand.. Dat's all for now.. Maybe will be back soon.. =P

~14 June 2009~

23：19 再一次被责备最近很会花钱.. 我无法否认.. 感觉很不好受.. 心里一直想说，“那么我就不再花钱咯” 但是我可以很肯定的说，不可能.. 但是就算是不可能我也必需要试.. 所以很不好意思的说，我暂时不会在外面吃东西了.. 斗气也好，什么都好.. 反正她说得没错，我和你们不同.. 家里已经有两个很爱花钱的儿子了.. 容不下的三个爱花钱的人了.. 反正一直以来都在说要减肥.. 现在就来吃少点吧.. 讲完了.. 累了.. 晚安...

~28 May 09~

Today no class.. Stay at home whole day.. Morning open de browser and keep on refreshing.. Waiting for de result to be released.. Same like last sem.. Luckily all subs pass d.. Happy for 1 min.. After dat i duno even noe wat feeling is dat... Should i run to my mom and say dat i passed all? No.. I didnt do dat.. I dun wanna get de same reaction like past sems.. Wat is a B- to her? Its a grade near to B.. And B is next to A.. A good son like me should get A... And not only pass all subs... I'm not saying its her fault.. All parents want a good son or daughter.. I can understand dat point.. I dun hv any point to argue about anything... Yesterday finally insomnia.. Thinking wat if i failed one or two subs.. Wat if i hv to repeat.. Wat will be her dialogue.. I'm tired... Few days ago she told me something.. She said she understand dat she cant force HouNam to be like me.. HouNam isnt me.. He cant be like me... All her hope, her everything is on my shoulder.. Wow.. Dat's heavy... Fuh.. Wat to do... I'm her son.. Forever.. Nothing to blame.. I remember last time when i joined de discussion group in Ugen.. I wonder if i mentioned dis before.. They asked us to make anything out of some old newspaper to represent ourselves... Wat will u make? I duno about u but i made a trophy... The ppl thr only gv one reaction.. "Wah...trophy?" But all became silent after hearing my explaination.. I said.."Dis is a trophy.. I am a trophy to my mom.. I am a very good son to her and she used to use me as a topic when she's speaking to her customers.. I feel like i'm a trophy for her to be proud of.. But do u noe dat being a trophy is not as easy as u can see? To be kept on de rack i must keep on being de 'son'.. Mayb dat is wat a son SHOULD do but dats not easy to me.. A trophy is good to look at but not easy to be one.." Mayb u'll think wat i said is lcly.. But i'm not showing off.. Nothing to be proud of... Just... Tired...

Just now PLim called.. At first not reli planning to post but.. Dis is my blog.. Watever i wan i think.. Again.. Using ppl.. I reli wonder how she managed to request such things even when she knew ppl will noe wat she actually wans... Wouldnt she be shame? Ng hou yi shi? She is great.. Admire her courage.. She reli can do watever she wans as long as she need it, she like it.. Cool.. All of a sudden go to Pavilion at 7pm with her.. Speechless.. Although i knew wat type of people is she, i'm disappointed.. From now on i guess i dun hv to feel bad about wat we did or talked about her... As she doesnt care wat ppl might think, we dun hv to too... 

~哭~

哭是其中一种发泄的方法... 但是我们常常都会听到父母说，“长大了，别哭了。”... 长大了不应该哭吗？记得阿牛有一首歌... 列名为“哭”... 里面的歌词我觉得是对的... 长大了，不是不应该哭... 而是应该哭了过后知道该如何做... 把一切都收在心里是很难受的... 如果是无法和任何人分享的话，偶尔大哭一场也许也不错... 哭不出的话找一些戏或动画帮助你流泪吧... 就如歌词里提到的... 流过泪的眼睛，将生命看的更清楚... 也许对某些人来说哭是很丢脸的事... 但是对我来说，哭并不可笑... 反而不会哭的人更可笑，可怜... 可悲....