~Big sigh~

Hvnt been here for some time.. Busy or lazy watever la.. Sigh.. Lately been missing Lunarians' gatherings.. All this is due to my skin illness.. I know watever she did is for my good but is not dat ur intention is good meaning de whole idea is good.. Wat I wanna say is very simple.. I dun wanna lose my life just because of dis skin illness... But she just don get me.. To her wat is more important than my health.. So at de end I lost.. Lost because I'm someone's son.. Losing de freedom I once own and losing myself.. All de way up to today I've nvr ever feel tired of being a 'perfect' son.. Lately I‘m fatique.. It is so tiring to be a perfect son.. I am tired.. But so wat? I'm stil her son.. Forever.. I can do ntg but accept it and keep on disappointing her.. I reali cant believe a simple skin illness will ruin my life.. Now my wish everyday is for Feb 2010 to come faster.. Den I can once again escape from life for 3 months.. Tonite is Yuan's bd celebration.. Again I'm going to miss it.. Going to bed before 10 is wat I SHOULD do.. Can do ntg.. Only sigh.. Hope everything is gonna be fun.. Please enjoy urself...