~Big sigh~

Hvnt been here for some time.. Busy or lazy watever la.. Sigh.. Lately been missing Lunarians' gatherings.. All this is due to my skin illness.. I know watever she did is for my good but is not dat ur intention is good meaning de whole idea is good.. Wat I wanna say is very simple.. I dun wanna lose my life just because of dis skin illness... But she just don get me.. To her wat is more important than my health.. So at de end I lost.. Lost because I'm someone's son.. Losing de freedom I once own and losing myself.. All de way up to today I've nvr ever feel tired of being a 'perfect' son.. Lately I‘m fatique.. It is so tiring to be a perfect son.. I am tired.. But so wat? I'm stil her son.. Forever.. I can do ntg but accept it and keep on disappointing her.. I reali cant believe a simple skin illness will ruin my life.. Now my wish everyday is for Feb 2010 to come faster.. Den I can once again escape from life for 3 months.. Tonite is Yuan's bd celebration.. Again I'm going to miss it.. Going to bed before 10 is wat I SHOULD do.. Can do ntg.. Only sigh.. Hope everything is gonna be fun.. Please enjoy urself...

~3/9/09~

今天是九月三号…明天就要开始大考了…我竟然还在这里blogging…唉…算了吧…我就是这样…这样才是我…每天只会说每个人的读书方式都不一样…我的方式就是临时抱佛脚…现在的我连临时抱佛脚的动力也没有…到时候成绩出了就会怕到要死…无聊…

最近的生活方式如旧…早上上网到中午做家务…晚上偶尔去喝茶…但是感觉上身边的朋友都变了…有的成熟了…有的陌生了…虽然说是正常的…但是突然的改变会让人难以适应…其实久而久之就会习惯了…就交给时间吧…

还是继续读书好了…再会了部落格…

~Let'ed' go~

Today saw Ken at TARC.. Yes.. It's Lee Wai Ken.. Sounds funny but I did chat a while with him.. We met at canteen and he's buying bread.. For his breakfast I guess.. De person that I once hated.. Once thought that dis hatred will last forever.. But one day I heard something from radio.. By Chui Ling.. What will u feel when de person u 'hate' is dead.. Will u still hate him/her? Or drop ur precious tears for not hving de chance to say anything anymore? So I've been thinking.. Must I live in hatred? Why must I torture myself by hating someone.. Nothing will be changed.. So.. I decided to let go.. Not to say forget whatever happened.. But not to think so much of it.. It's in the past.. Time machine hvnt been created and nobody can change anything.. But we can create everything.. So why dun we choose to create something more worthy to be remembered instead of living in de past.. Is dis so called 'positive thinking'? =)

~21/08/09~

Hvnt been here for one week.. NO other reason.. Just lazy.. =P Lately been itchy and dots appeared all over my body.. Appeared and disappeared and reappear again.. Hate.. Same thing happening now.. Reali wonder what type of skin illness is dis.. Been to all type of doctors.. Everyone got diff saying.. But no one can cure me.. Babi betul.. Just now surf webs regarding Maya/Mayan's prophecy.. 20/21/22/23rd Dis 2012 is de end of world.. But telling de truth.. I dun care at all.. Now is only 2009.. There are so many ppl died at dis moment, when u are reading dis.. Nobody noes when they'll die.. So why do I hv to care about what is going to happen on Dis of 2012 when I dun even noe if I'll be died tmr or day after tmr..or am I dead on the next minute.. Instead of thinking when we'll be dead, why dun we focus on what we can do at dis moment.. What we wan to do at dis moment.. Sounds so serious.. =.=" Better stop now cause I oso dunno what I'm trying to tell.. Just been away for a week jeh.. Eng became so bad.. Sigh.. Itchy la.. Big sigh.. Wondering if dis skin illness will kill me... Tell u guys what.. If I reali died because of dis, dun forget to burn me de photos of Redang and thx for everything.. =)

~ABLAZE Hospitality Touch~

ABLAZE is a charity carnival organised by Adv. Dip. student of Hotel Management.. Been helping out in de carnival for 2 days.. Tired.. But reali happy to work together wif other friends from same course, sharing their valuable experiences.. Muscle pain.. First time in life time playing wif Zorb Ball, which is a very big plastic ball wif space for 2 person in it.. Reali good experiences.. Never regret my decision of helping out at the field for Zorb Ball alone.. =) Another happy thing was able to play in rain.. Haha.. Actually its at de end of carnival, when we have to pack everything its raining cat and dog.. So everyone oso running across de field in rain.. So damn song.. Haha.. Wished to run in rain for long time d.. Finally de wish came true.. Cause previously no reason to run in rain since I began to drive.. In conclusion, 8 words, can't wait for the next event to begin.. ^^

~8/8/09~

Back from McD.. Heard a lot, talked not much (gua).. Feeling? Mixed.. Reali feel that I should change myself.. Should stop giving/telling rubbish or so called 'what I think/my opinion'.. Reason.. Cause I'm fedup wif '你没拍过拖 你不知道的啦'.. True or false alrdy very lazy and tired to argue.. Supporting point is for example, if u agree wif what I'm saying u'll say true, if u dun agree u'll take this dialogue out again and again.. Reali think what I'm thinking can only keep for myself as it is not necessary to speak out as u know ppl just wont accept it..

Talked about Jia Hui (her name) just now.. Actually frankly speaking I alrdy didnt think about us anymore.. Our relation is classmates.. Nothing more than that.. Later going for class.. Thinking wanna slp or not.. Anyway.. Gd nite..

~I'm back~

Woke up at this time and ntg to do so came here to leave some words.. Lately stil acting de same.. Money problems turning all around, alone, looking for DanDan... I'm have been asking myself one question.. Am I hated? It's not easy to know how ppl think about u and I decided not to think about that.. Indeed I dun have to know how ppl think.. It wont change anything.. De only thing that will be changed is my feeling or so called 'relationship' among me and him/her.. Lately something happened and I think there is already a barrier among me and my classmates.. But as long as I know what I'm doing, I dun have to feel guilty for anything.. Moreover, who are they? Classmates or so called 'friends' for 2 years? Saying things like this may makes me looks like a cold-hearted person but this is de truth.. As soon as we stepped into de society to work, how many of us will remember each other? May be there will be some who will miss everyone but definitely not me.. Sorry to say but that is what I'm thinking.. I'm not acting cruel.. De world is cruel...